Tuesday, January 20, 2009

The Fine Art of Creating Ourselves

Love is a beautiful emotion, but it must be used wisely to protect ourselves from energy that is traumatic to our Spiritual energy. We must be able to differentiate between the energy that feels good with our energy and the energy that does not feel good with our energy. (22-23, K Oddenino handout)

When we learn to live through the love within us, we trigger the love within other people. (23)

Creating ourselves is a fine art. We create a new image of ourselves and our focus in life.

I love learning Spiritual Philosophy. I love the way I feel when I make connections in my mind, like answering questions that may have lain dormant for years, or centuries, which "suddenly" are remembered, uncovered, revealed by the winds of change blowing in a new time and space. Jan. 18th's seminar on Our True Relationship to Physical Energy and Why We Create Disease inspired me further as this year begins.

Here are a few thoughts inspired from the day's learning, and the Inauguration into a New Year of Change. Rather than blame or judge, find the lesson, the connection for you of your soul and spirit lesson as it is reflected in the physical, in your behavior, your thoughts, feelings, the need to “chew on” what you are not yet ready to let go of. It has not always been easy for me to change my image of friendship, for example – my image of myself as a friend, or of others as friends. Why? Because as an ego self I believed that change meant “loss”? As I did change my image of myself, I was sometimes reluctant (afraid), or slow to see, that changing my image of myself meant changing my perception and therefore the reality of my physical, mental,and emotional interaction in some relationships. Fear begets defensiveness, control, protectionism, jealousy, competition. This illusion controls thought like a binding glove, or rope. Any tethering that is tightly bound is a control, not a safety net. Even this is making the image physical – rather than the “tethering” of the umbilical cord, the silver thread that connects us in the image of creators to creation. Meiosis, mitosis, the threads of chemicals that build themselves, connect, interact, change and grow, let go. The fear is a belief of an old self which had to make sure “I” was real, by pinching myself, opening my eyes, blinking. Are you still there? Here? How do I know, unless I can touch, feel, hear you? It is a dependency upon the five PHYSICAL senses as real only in their “physical” interpretation. I chose to be born as a triplet, with the inimitable support of my parents and brothers and sister. To be together as energy, as a conception then expanding, growing through evolution into an embryonic energy and on into the development and birth as a physical being, is a way to be conscious of the whole cycle, with “witnesses.” Clever, isn’t it.

Fear of change and a perception of change as a “loss” rather than gain is a fear of life, a fear of death, a fear of love, a fear of "energy as real." Expressions as an ego self are easy and quickly drawn. They become habitual, obsessive. Expressions as a loving self require attention to detail in the ways that women throughout history have woven beautiful blankets, knitted beautiful tapestries, made delicate, elaborate tablecloths and bedspreads which are passed down through generations of families. It is the lessons of energy, as energy, that we are created to learn. Their expressions can be beautiful, as we honor the art of their (our) creation, and take the time and energy to create the beauty our love motivates us to create.

Often in our Spiritual Philosophy seminars, Kathy Oddenino brings up the potential of DNA research to “show us who we are” as eternal energy beings. She shares stories of her life in the medical world, when she worked with others in research to uncover these patterns of life at a time when DNA research was in its infancy. At the seminar on Sunday (this year’s focus is on Being Spiritual, understanding Energy and the Ethical Values…), I thought about this again. When I, as a thinking mind, take in information and add to my storehouse of experience, and I do not understand the relationship of the information to myself as an energy being, I remain the same identity I was before I heard the information, except maybe I have added a little swagger. There may be an added sense of confidence, the blind faith of “information” as a tool, a god that protects me from the dangers of ignorance, should I ever need that piece of information. I trust I’ll know where to find it. It may be like knowing I need a photo ID now to board an airplane. Without it, there is chaos, maybe frustration, a necessary change of plan with a variety of levels of drama. With ID in hand, I feel secure – I have what I need, what they want. If I feel I don’t have what I need, or what someone else may require or want, do I feel insecure? What an interesting pattern this is! During the seminar we spoke about the imperative that we know ourselves as unique, as individuals, as creators, that we trust ourselves above others. Only we can learn to know ourselves as energy beings, to craft the dynamic personality we want to be, to live. Copying another, depending upon another's example even, dishonors us as eternal energy beings designed with unmatched intelligence. To know this as an eternal energy being (as all human beings are) is to love the excitement of “having what I need always.” No more shaking like a leaf on a tree when confronted by an “unknown,” as a DNA researcher who fears that his own DNA markers will “mark him for life” as he is bound by his (or her) belief that we live only one life! The joy is in the living, the thinking, the loving,the discovery, changing, the reality that as energy we have a precise design and we create patterns as energy through which we express ourselves as we search, live and change.

I have no doubt about my identity as an energy being - do I? As a thinking mind I am learning to eternally appreciate the beauty of the reality that we are our own creators, the gods of our own design because we share this common heritage of an intelligent design, as eternal energy beings. How do I love? By honoring this joy that conscious creation brings, always, and by acknowledging and sharing the love I feel. My friends, I honor you in your creations and want to know more! History is our patchwork of stories as evolving consciousness. I’ve gotten some text messages from soul images of myself that I’ve read with new eyes, in this “transition to power” time. No more will I depend upon the strength of relationships as "fixed bridges," as I still honor our mutual creations with their time and space signature. Now, the task that thrills my soul is to honor the changes we live, the attractions of energy that continues to expand itself as I/we nurture it. This is a kind of “re-birthing” for me in this new year. And it’s one more growing-up lesson! As an acquaintance experiencing the sadness of loss and the sweetness of memories wrote to me, yes, happy new year…it will be a good one, I feel sure. It’s a big journey.

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